I have never ever thought about doing a bucket list, maybe because it’s the thought of dying that’s attached to it or maybe whenever I plan something it never really goes the way I plan. I was told by a cousin who is a pastor, write the vision in pencil and give god the eraser so yeah I don’t do bucket list.
Truth be told as I look back over my life if I was to create a bucket list some of it has already came true such as meeting a celebrity by a struck of luck and gods abundance grace I signed up for a class at Howard and the first day of this unusual class called “inside-outside” behind the walls the class was consist of 30 students 15 that was incarcerated (inside) and 15 that was regular students (outside) and an announcement that a well known celebrity was joining the class.
To my surprise in walked Nick Cannon and sat next to me shared my textbook until he got his and had a conversation about the class. I was able to get his autograph for my grandson Kaleb. So as all things bucket list goes I think I am ahead of myself I have met and had conversations with several Congress person. I worked for one of Obama’s administrators as a babysitter and have met one of the coolest celebrities in Hollywood so what’s left. If I think for a minute maybe to visit Ireland, Aruba, and Israel then I have no idea maybe I’ll just enjoy my grand babies and let go of the bucket list.
“Be exalted oh lord above the heavens”
I have been humming this song for the last 2 days all day and can’t get it out of my head. If you are reading this and you know this song l, good luck getting it out of yours.
It’s somewhat “misty” here in the mountains today and as I eat breakfast and watch the sunrise, there is a thick fog over the mountains. From where I am it looks like smoke covering the mountains and I thought maybe this is what it looked like to the isrealities in the wilderness.
As the day goes on and I go about my day someone pointed out to me that over the peak of the mountain you can see the sun shining. I stopped and looked where I am, it is drizzling rain somewhat and a little cool but right over the trees and mountains there is sunshine and as I keep looking it looked like a light (the glory of god) so I start humming be exalted oh lord among the heavens, let your glory be over the earth be exalted oh lord. Yep all day long I hummed that song and as I sit here at the end of the day writing this I realize I realize that the mountain is gods sermon to me, my own personal illustrated sermon. Even as the mist and the light cover the mountain so is his grace and love is covering me. So yes lord be exalted above the heavens and let your glory be over this earth vessel. Be exalted in my life, let your glory shine through me.
“Take it in stride” he said. What? Have you met me? Do you even know me? I am borderline OCD. He smiled, “borderline? I see your still in denial”. I pout but smile, you sound like my daughter as I rolled my eyes. “You can roll them but you can’t shoot them” he still smiling. This convo is over! How old are we and this convo is old. “Okay so why do we keep having it”.
Rob is my bestie for life. He calls it like he sees it and as a motivation speaker by occupation and pastor by vocation our conversation as a part of his job is hazardous. He just can’t help himself but I have to make a plan, do a to do list, set reminders and yes life happens and reluctantly, very reluctantly I move with life because I don’t have a choice. Emergencies, changes, curve balls are the speciality of my normal life but I won’t say I take it in stride. I cope, I manage, I adjust and scream and then I spass to Rob knowing he can’t help himself and will most likely bring some of his cliches to my attention. Okay so I may not take it in stride but I learned to adapt.
Since I am on this sabbatical that I call a retreat that I did not sign up for. The tears are less and I am still asking why? I know the experience is not for naught, I would just love to get the lesson without the experience. Anyway Bible journaling is my anchor even more. I don’t have all my fun supplies I really only have the basic and it’s all that I need. I used to tell anyone who asked me about bible journaling all you need is a bible , crayons, and pen/pencil. Everything else is a plus so I have more than enough to do it. I miss my sweet swap sisters and the support and bond god gave me in the first phase of this journey/battle but I realized he was giving me a foundation on which I will have to conquer this battle and for that I am grateful. What I don’t have in supplies I have in scenic view and I know in order to conquer this battle and get the spirit I need to keep building my bible-journaling foundation one brick and one color at a time.
If you live in America and for me I want to say Washington DC, you will have to live under a rock to not know this is most likely an epidemic of homelessness even as you are reading this blog you may had experienced homelessness.
Most of the time when we think of homeless we think living in the streets, panhandling and most likely have a mental illness or a little step up is living in a family shelter and there are programs helping you get on your feet and if you are not getting on your feet you must be doing something wrong like drugs or mismanaging your funds etc.
The truth is most of us are one paycheck away from homelessness and that’s our reality. If it’s not a lack of education problem, a lack of decent job problem, or an under or unemployed problem its just a reality if the situation. One wrong turn as in a divorce, an unexpected illness or a death can tip the scale and you can find yourself homeless or displaced. As I am writing this I am thinking and praying for the people who may for the first time find themselves homeless because of the previous hurricanes. America has moved on but there are families that are now homeless and will ha e to work twice as hard to recover and restore. It is for this reason I have decided to share some stories of some of the families that has been brave enough to share their stories with me knowing I will write a series of blogs…. Stay Tuned!
A few years ago, one of my pastors, Pastor H preached a sermon about God being a just God. For me that should mean life is fair right? If you work hard, you’re a good person, you are a christian, love God, obey God’s law and the law of the land then you’re life should show it. You should have the rewards of a hardworker but in reality that is not so. Justice is blind, the scales are not weighed and balanced, the good hardworking person doesn’t always win (at least not here and now) the truth is it seems like the system itself is set up to keep the hardworking down and those who will use and abuse the system will get ahead.
I am not being cynical and this blog is not even about a broken system because it’s all temporary. I tell my kids “life is not fair but you still get to live it and conquer mountains”. So how do we see God being just when life is so unfair? The thing is God is not moved bybtge natural and our situation does not move him. He moves our situation and as David says, “the wicked enjoys for a season it is temporary for them but a just God who gives us more than what we deserve, who gives us his best is setting us up for a higher place our reward is permanent and yes it can be discouraging at times but o rather suffer a little here now and have a hope and future on God, then prosper now and be damned to help.
So grateful that God is just.
A few months after I got to America I went to an All day self-esteem workshop. I’m not sure how and why, 27 years later I can’t even remember the speaker name but what pregnant 19 year old moving into a new country does not need a self-esteem workshop. What I remember was they dealt with body types, colors and clothes that fit each. It was actually my first workshop. What I do remember about it is that she read the book ” I love you forever” by Robert Munch and gave all the participants a copy it. That book changed bedtime for my kids starting with the first. I have read that book a million times over the past 27 years and to this day my family still says “I love you forever, I love you for always, as long as I’m living, my _____ you’ll be”. I love giving it as a baby shower gift.